:/

and yeah ..
i think you dont need me .
anyways ..
you have someone else who can takecare of you when i cant .
not sure if i can take it

sorry i MIA awhile XD .

now JUNPIGG ish in my house (: .

maple and audi and SLEEP :P

no P &@$(^%(@&$ !

`today woke up at 1.30pm ++ .

`woke up w eyes fille-d w tears .
`dreamt about TANJUNBIN :/ ..
`sufferin-q ..
` even in my dreams ): ..
`dreamt that his fren , SAMEUL spam sms me .
`and i used house phone call him so he cant spam .
`read all th` sms-es and mostly all wrote ,
` " JUNBIN DW YOU SO YOU MUST TAKECARE URSELF"
` " JUNBIN GOT ANTHOER GIRLF AHAHAHHA . "
` " JUNBIN WANT YOU TO LEAVE HIM ALONE FERHEVA "

` than when i was readinq it ,
` i cried :/ .
` my heart beated v fast ..
` than i didnt believe-d it ..
` i went to TANJUNBIN`s House th 10th story stairs .
` look down at 9 story and waited .
` heard dhe` door , look down and saw him .
` wanted to approach him til ..
` i saw a girl .
` he was holdinq her hands at th lift ..
` i didnt do anythinq..
` i just made a heart-shape w my hands n look through it t see them .


` i wish you everythinq .
` than i closed my eyes ..
` and i woke up from that .. nightmare ..
` just to find myself cryinq :/ ..
` and havinq another brokeenheart ` babyy , yourh hauntinq me .

`I LOVE YOU .
`Are you cominq back .
250 .

hais,
after th trip t the hosptial ,
MUM , DAD and BRO - elder-
were thinkinq of migratinq to AUSTRALIA ):
w th whole family in 3-5 years time

after that ,
BRO,MUM,DAD,SHEILA n ME went to GEYLANG ,
findinq granddad TRUCK .

than after that ,
mum drop us off LOT 1 .
WENT DDR at TIMEZONE .
a OLD MAN kept cominq closer to me . - MEI said -
so we both walk abit further away .
sianzxc .
WE SAW 3NICE bags ):




JUNBIN,
im sorry .
i didnt mean t show you attitude..
i ..
i didnt mean it
351 .

` went to HOSPITAL to visit grandfather .
` He fell down when he was at work :/
` Internal HEAD bleedinq ,
` FEVER ..
` im not sure else :/

` maybe he needs operation ` his eyes are swallon .
` 1 shoulder also swallon.
` Head :/ ...
` im really sad .
` one look at his face,
` i could tell how painful it is .
` i didnt wish to leave th room .

` i dunwan to leave my granddad .
` i dunwan it to be th last time i see him ` i wish i told him how much I LOVE HIM .
` i can feel abit of HIS PAIN .

`qonq-qonq ,
`i wish i had told you how much i LOVE it when you were here by my side .
`you would stop my dad from cane-inq me when it gets too serious w it .
`you would let me sit in your laps when i was sad when i was a small qirl .
`now i`ve grown , you have grown,
`you cant let me sit on your lap , iim heavy .
`but you still love me even though you didnt say it .
`we keep sayinq " somethinq wronq" its fun w you around.

`qonqqonq ,
`you can make it .
`cuz i never want you to leave now .
`it wont be the same.
`an EMPTY chair in dhe livinq room . - u used t sit there and watch us-
`an EMPTY table .. -u use t work outside on th table n watch us come home.-
`an EMPTY space in my heart .. - There`s where you touch my heart- .

`qonqqonq,
`i will always love you .
`dont leave.

WENDY jie ,
her mei ,
my gan mei n i ,

are about t qo LOT 1 :D
hais :x
WE ARE MEETING 1st time O.o .


wish me luck :D
thinkinq of buyinq cash o.o


<333

GONE .



TANJUNBIN ,
i qott admit ,
im half way out dhe door .
but i will still love you.
secretly..

Our Weddinq ~

wahhhs -
`tdy went t parkwayParade to find Jeremy :D
`was late :x
`abit lost .


`saw him XD .
`i sibehh shy wlao .
`1st time siol :x

`was abit emo at dhe` start but it took lonq enuf ferh me t finally talk O.o ..
`play-ed audi :D
`stare-d at him O.O

`he walks like a qirl.
` :D
`was v sianzxc.

`his fren v funneh..
`thy too hyper :3
` HAHAHAHA .
`me n jeremy phone no batt x-x

` <3
` :x
` >x< .
` :x



`dear me,
`i think my heart is back t usual (:
`but i hope nth breaks it down aqan ):
`,
`..
` ,
` - smth like 1st love-
`(:
`SEEYOUINAUDI GOD DAM SHYT >:(

` hais ,
` i feel so sad all of a sudden ..
` i qot throuqh JUNBIN`s house number and..
` His Nehphew answere-d .
` He said JUNBIN in toilet..
` He also said JUNBIN Cant Call Me cuz he
` never study n keep playinq :/ ..


` JUNBIN ,
` Im Sorry i didnt answer your phone calls but..
` Believe me, i didnt notice and i did try callinq back .
` i miss you







`TJB <3
` i need you now and ferhever.
` stay by my side ?

waitinq ferhh my LOVE to call me :x

i hope your alrite >x< .
watch-ed CH U 10-11pm.

:DD <3
tinqly feelinq <3

TJB <3
alwys n ferhever <3


im waitinq <3
lovinq <3
muacks babyy <3
360 more days .

360

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130510

`HEHEHHEE..
`just now JUNBIN CAME <3
`i waite-d outside his house v lonq :x
`cant blame him ,
`a zhu is alwys a zhu ^w^ <3

`than we cab over my house <3
`we tickle-d each other (: <3
`we did so much <3 `
-PlaY-ED XD .

`than near to 2 le,
`he qotta qo slack :x
`^w^ <3
`CHERISHHbabeeh .

`im still waitinq <3
`chuu HEAL-ED mahh` HEART <3
-abit <3-
` im alwys okayy when im w you <3

`qave 5 dollar to him <3
`SNEAK 10DOLLAR into his pockett <3
-i no money ferhh tmr ): - `

`i dun mind suffer-inq ferh you .


`- / WAITING <3>
`- / LOVINGG <3>
`- / TANJUNBIN <3

another day ..
w/o him in mahh` life.

another day ..
just another painful day
maybe chuu jus dun love me back .
`S` tryna hurt me more ?
makinq me feel like this ..
she thinks its funn to disiao me at my state ?
cant she see its killinq me more ?
or is that wad she wanted :/

Babyy,
im waitinq..
im tryinq my best to survive .

`- / TODAY wild doqs chase die mei n me :D
-mountain doqs -
qotta chanqe bloq skin ._.
someone has same as me -.-
qorrsh .


`- / TJB ,
return to me okayy ?
i`ll be qood.
theres only tears,
only hate,
there is only fears,
theres only pain .

i need you by my side riqht now..
cuz im so addicted to you.

babyy ,
be mine aqan okayy ?
i will secretl-y love you..



why did you let her touch you
im waitinq ferhh you..
im holdinq on.

boi ,
i`ve been dyinq ferhh you ..
i see dhat i`ve been wastinq time..
you fill-ed me up w lies i believed..

i did my best to prove to you..
i quess you jus didnt love me back ehh..
not dhe` way i use to love you..

362 more days..
cant you see each day i wait ,
dhe` pain grows..
dhe` more i die inside..

i`m tryinq not to remeber you so dhat i wun qet hurt but..
i quess love is just a qame u play..
my heart aint beatinqq dhe` way it use-d to..


362 ~
waitinq~
pain~
death~

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And Ive lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love

Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on

But i know
All i know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost

Hope remains
And this war's not over
Theres a light
Theres the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer -

1 day .. 364 more.

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IM SO SIANZXCZXC !!

-cant believe im bloqqinq :>
`Wudds TPYS !?
`SHYDIE to someone :3
`Missinq TJB :C ..


`laoqonq, wo hai zai denq ni hui lai wo de pianqbien :x ?
`waitinq.. lovinq..
`Pleasure Love Last But A Moment , Pain Of Love Last A LifeTime.






`im waitinq babyyboy <3

i remeber-ed ,
you said our fight brinqs us closer ..
you show-ed me i couldnt have you back after dhe fiqht end-ed .

when you wanted to see me,
i came no matter what i was doinq..
and when i had to leave,
you wanted me to come back later even thouqh it was late..
i promise-d ..
and i left..
i came back for you..
-you called 4 dhe break due to anqer-
-you aske-d ferh patch-
and cuz i would alwys love you no matter wad,
i accepted.. im yours aqan..

now,
cuz of sadness i broke w you..
i tot i couldnt make u smile..
i tried to call ,
i called your house phone alot of times but thy said u wasnt in..
you`d be home round 11-12 am ..
i couldnt qet throuqh still ..
couldnt sleep well ..
i did my best ferh you..
i will alwys accept u back..
now i want you to accept me back ferh once..
but it seems you cant .

i said i would save money for your birthday present..
you said im all that you want..
than why wont you accept me back..
-im still savinq-
lookinq throuqh dhe` past..
i blame myself..
i quess i wasnt qood enouqh..


i quess your already lettinq qo..
even after what you said..

Keep Thinkinq of hym ...
Hope This Doesnt Affect My Mind On Tomorrow cominq xAms :/ ..
ima qonna miss chuu babyy .

RejEctions







i will wait til` dhe` day yourh` mine aqan .

hais ..
i crie-d in class aqan .. crie-d so much dhat i took out a penknife and wantinqq to stab my heart..
i didnt cuz some people stopp-ed me..

qladys cut-ed her finger to get dhe` knife away from me ferh` 1st try..
dhen when she`s qone ..
my 2nd attempt ..
faile-d .



babeehh i need you back now

`- TanJunBin ,

because-d i miss-ed chuu ,
i crie-d .
durinq maths class test .
i cried while letter a letter ferh chuu .
i couldnt stand dhe` pain.

i had to smile .
i cant show them how weak i can be.
i`ve qotta staystronq .

after sch ..
i was alone .
outside homeroom..
i smse-d JUNBIN`s fren ..
he scolded me aqan .
thn i couldnt help ..
i fell to dhe` ground n cried my heartout ..

babehh ..
you noe,
you can make me cry ..
but where are you.
i tot u would heal my heart.
isint it wad u promis-ed .
im still waitinq ~

`i left him ..
`ieh couldnt take everythinqq- .
`i wants himm .

`maybeeh a mistake .
`BreakDown ...
`Am ieh everythinq you want .
`Am i that special someone .

`iloveyuush .
`qoodbye-s .



`one day ι wιll ѕee yoυ aqan .
`one day ι wιll love yoυ aqan.
` and one day ι wιll вe w yoυ aqan.
`ιм alwaayѕ lovιnq yυυѕн .
`тαиנυивιи , уσυ ωιιι αιωуѕ вє мαн вαвєєн вσу-